'Thoughtlessness State'

In the past few articles, I have emphasized on thoughtlessness state. It is easy to say it rather then doing it. Constant practice required in achieving and staying on that state.  Various methods have been passed on from generation to generation with the ultimate goal to be in that state.

            I found it easier to be in the state with holding on a single thought. Whenever a thought arises, concentrate on that particular thought and hold on to it. Don’t let other thoughts to come following that initial thought. If we observe closely, each thought will be followed by another thought and the train of thought will start with a never-ending process until we sleep. Even in sleep, sometimes it will manifest as dream in the rapid eye movement (REM) sleep stage. The stage of sleep in which we are able to recall our dreams. So we are all aware that the train of thoughts never stops. If we observe closely during a conversation with friends or relatives, the topic will shift from one to another till at the end of the conversation, it will be a completely irrelevant topic from the beginning. The same goes with our thought process. The moment we woke up, the thought process will start with no whatsoever reasoning or correlation between each thoughts. It will continuously arise and dies off. The moment it dies, it will be given birth to another one. Sometimes one thought gives birth to many thoughts. Other times many thought will run concurrently at any one time. The whole process is a continuum.

            Holding on to a single thought is not an easy task. Initially, it is not even possible to identify a single thought. It is impossible to dissect a single thought from many thoughts. There will be so many thoughts running at the same time and it is not possible to hold on to a single thought. The ability to even observe the thought process without identifying with it, by itself a great achievement. We will call it the first step. The first step is important before we can go to the next stage. The first step is important to realise that thoughts are just thoughts. The problems with us are, we get identified with our thoughts. We have too many ‘I’. We will perfectly agree with one opinion and after a while we will change our opinion. We have too many opinions. We have too many questions. It is perfectly normal for us to change opinion according to the ‘I’ that we have adopted. It is perfectly normal for us to keep on changing our opinion and we are proud of it. We call it ‘evolution’. The constant change of opinion as a result of constant change of thoughts defines our so called ‘I’. It is also perfectly normal for us to day-dream, the identification with one’s thoughts without much attention to surroundings. Many of us day-dream at any one point sometimes on daily basis. We justify the act of day-dreaming by giving a name for it, deep thinking.

The state of thoughtlessness is unimaginable for the beginners. For a very simple reason, we have grown up thinking and we are thought to think. Our parents ask us to think. Our teachers ask us to think. Our professors ask us to think. The whole humanity is asking us to think. And now suddenly, when we are asked to stop thinking and just ‘let go’, it becomes a burden. Actually, it should be the other way around. The act of thinking should be a burden rather than stop thinking. Our natural state during birth was in a thoughtlessness state. Somehow along the way, during our childhood we learned how to think and forget about our natural state. So the whole process of the exercise now is just to rewind ourselves to go back to the state where we belong. We are going to unwind ourselves. We are going to put a reverse gear to go back where we came from.

OK, I will stop digressing and come back to the methods of how to do it. As I mentioned earlier, we need to hold on to that single thought. Initially, many thoughts will pass together. Later on, once you manage to identify a single thought, many more thoughts will come following that single thought. Never mind, hold on to that single thought. Let few other thoughts pass following that. After constant practice, it is achievable for a short time. Slowly the number of thoughts following the initial thought will reduce. I realized holding on to the breath is a good method to suspend temporarily the thought process. If holding on to the single thought is impossible, just inhale a long breath and hold on to the breath. Hold on the breath till the body allows. Hold on to the breath till we can feel our own heart beat. Momentary control of thoughts is achievable by regulating the breathing process. Alternatively, inhale via the left nostril and exhale via the right nostril. Alternating nostril breathing helps to calm down the whole mental process. Both process of concentrating on a single thought that arises and breathing technique should be done concurrently. Another method is observe how the air filling up the lungs during the inhalation process and how it exits slowly during the exhalation. It might take months and years to master the technique of controlling the thought process and breathing, but it is achievable with the blessing of Guru/Masters.

Over time, with constant practice, the duration of thoughtlessness state will prevail compared to the normal state in which we are pre-occupied with thoughts. In that thoughtlessness state, a state of clarity will come. A paradigm shift will happen in our life. Things will never look the same again. In that thoughtlessness state, a tremendous energy will arise. The state of thoughtlessness will gives birth to the state where we came from and we belong. Aum Sadguru.

He is wordless

I was contemplating for a while to write this article following uproar over the use of a certain word denoting ‘God’ among different major religions in Malaysia. I am not mentioning the exact word here, as I am not going to dwell regarding the same issue, which has been subjected to ongoing debate for personal and political gains. For me, the matter of debating the use of the word ‘God’ is as futile as the word itself. The word ‘God’ which is created by the three letters has no meaning whatsoever except by own interpretation and understanding. Again and again, I would like to emphasis that words are just words. We give value to words. So words without understanding remained meaningless. But a deep understanding won’t help either in understanding the word God. You can understand the meaning of God from what you have read in scriptures or thought by so called ‘religious experts’. But understanding of god is not possible to an ordinary mind. Understanding of god is not possible to a dull mind. Understanding of god is only possible when there is a serious inquiry. Understanding of god is only possible when mind is transcended. Ordinary mind only can comprehend that much about God limited by the boundaries of the mind itself.  But again understanding God does not mean you have comprehended God. The moment God is understood; He has been brought to the limited boundary of mind. How can God be understood when He can be limited to an ordinary mind. He is limitless. He has no border. He is timeless. No words are able to describe Him. He is beyond words. Therefore any attempt to restrict His names by certain words would proof our idiocy. Restricting His names to certain words just exposing our ignorance about Him. Claiming certain words to describe Him is very shallow.

Understanding of God is as good as to understand the word itself, nothing more. Always question who understands and what is there to be understood. You can understand the many different words to describe God. You can understand the many different forms of Gods if you believe in idol worship. You can understand the God in your religion as according to your belief and faith. But you will never understand HIM as He is. The moment you understand Him, you are bringing Him to your level of understanding. It will be as good as your own mental projections of Him. You can go on projecting Him as what you like, as what you perceive but at the end of day, it is just your own projections.  He is beyond mind and beyond the projections of your mind. So, stop projecting. He can’t be projected. He can’t be understood.

I was talking to one of my friend regarding the similar topic. I asked him the question about god and he mentioned he read in his religious scriptures pertaining God and he was be able to regurgitate what ever he memorized. I ask him again what he knows about God and not what he has read about God. He was dumbfounded. He was unable to utter a single word. I would like to ask the same question again, what we know about God. Not as what we read about Him, not as what we think God is. Not as what we thought throughout our life but seriously from our heart. How many of us can tell from our inner heart not projected mind about God. Godliness is not something we can learn through our degrees in university. Godliness is not knowledge of the mind. Godliness is not equivalent to memorizing the scriptures to whatever religion we belonged. The idiocy of issuing a religious statement by religious scholars is the biggest hypocrisy. As long as you are confining Him with certain words you have not tasted Him. As long as you are confining Him with certain words you have not experienced Him. As long as you are confining Him with certain words, you have not ‘breathed’ Him. As long as you are confining Him with certain words, you have not ‘heard’ Him. As long as you are confining Him with certain words, you have not ‘seen’ Him. As long as you are confining Him with certain words, you know absolutely nothing about Him. The moment you know HIM, the ecstasy of Him will stop all the questioning. The moment you know HIM, the authority that questions will stop. The moment you know HIM, the ‘Ego’ that questions will stop. The moment you know HIM, the mind that questions Him will stop.

HE IS when ‘we’ are not. HE IS when the mind stops. HE Is the dance of the heart. HE Is the breath of our body. HE Is the ‘prana’. HE Is the answer when all the questioning stops. HE is when all the words no more. He is the Question and the Answer Itself. ONLY HE IS. Aum Sadguru. 

'Alive' vs 'Floating'

Today is 21/12/2012. I have decided to write today not because the significance of the date but I have just completed one of the assignment given by my Prof. Past 1 week I was pre- occupied with the assignment. So much so, it was difficult for me to be ‘alive’. I lived like anybody else. I functioned like anybody else. But I was not ‘alive’. I got up in the morning, took breakfast, walked to the tram, reached workplace, rushing to meet the dateline while doing assignment and back home. The cycle continued for past 10 days. But I was not ‘alive’. Maybe there were moments I was ‘alive’ but most of the time I was ‘floating’. It was harder to be ‘alive’ when I was pre-occupied with the assignment. I needed the faculty of intellect and mind to help me to achieve the completion of the assignment. But in return ‘they’ made sure I was ‘floating’.  I was ‘existed’ as real as the stone and plants that I passed everyday to work. But at the same time ‘I’ was not existed in my context of ‘aliveness’. So, what is it to be ‘alive’ vs. ‘floating? We are alive only, when we are fully aware of our surroundings and ourselves. We are alive only, when we can appreciate the flower blossoming. We are alive only, when we can smell the flowers fragrances. We are alive only, when we can appreciate the morning breeze touching our face and hair. We are alive only, when we just remain as we are. We are alive only, when we are not dreaming. We are alive only, when we understand absolutely what is running in our thoughts. We are alive only, when not a single thought can pass in our mind without us noticing. We are alive only, when not even a single breath can go out or go in form our body without we realizing it.

 But those 10 days, I was ‘floating’. The thought of assignment occupied most of the time and space in my brain. I was walking and thinking the best way to finish it. I was eating and wandering the best solution for it. I was sleeping and even in dream finding solutions for the assignment. I was ‘floating’ rather than be ‘alive’. Those 10 days I was back to my past 35 years where I was ‘floating’ rather than being ‘alive’. The greatest misery of human kind is most of the time we are ‘floating’. Occasionally we are ‘alive’. Some, I would say never experienced the ‘aliveness’ in them. They were born, live for 100 years and die one day without knowing anything about being ‘alive’.

I was talking to my wife the other day about the same topic and I asked her to experience ‘aliveness’. I asked her to do a simple experiment by observing her breath. I asked her to watch her breath and observe how many times she will ‘miss’ from observing the breath. Those moments she was noticing the breath I called ‘alive’ and the moment she ‘miss’ to notice the breath, I addressed it as ‘floating’. Interestingly she managed to hold on to observe the breath going in and out for some time. Later on she needs constant reminding to be ‘alive’. A nick of time is sufficient for the mind to take control and we forget who is the master and, there we go ‘floating’. It was a continuous, tedious and long exercise initially to remain ‘alive’ rather than ‘floating’ but with constant practice it can be achieved. Even in that moment of observing breath, there will be thoughts running in our mind, such a powerful attachments of our body to the mind. Stopping the remaining running thoughts requires another exercise on top of the observing the breath. I told my wife to divide her whole concentration/thinking equally into two; one part should be concentrated on watching the breath and the other part should concentrate on the epigastrium/heart. By dividing the attention into two, one needs to be extremely aware to be constantly watchful of the breath and at the same time concentrating at the heart. By doing so, a glimpse of being ‘alive’ is possible for those particular moments. That is what I called living in the present. Living in the moment absolutely without past and future. That is the moment of truth. That is the ultimate reality. That is the blissful moments.  That is the state of ‘thoughtlessness’. May all of us blessed to be in that state. Aum Sadguru. 

Energy field

Past few years or so now I have been experiencing a sense of ‘feeling’ that I have not encounter before.  I have a very hard time to figure it out what it was initially. It is not described in any medical books as well. Being a doctor, I would say I was and I am being exposed sufficiently to medical fraternity books/ journals and medical publications to read about it. However the medical or scientific knowledge never mention the ‘feeling’ that I have been experiencing.  I am having some difficulty to even describe the ‘feeling’. This is particularly due to lack of proper word in any one of known languages to me. As this writing is in English, I have to choose the closest word to describe my ‘feeling’. The ‘feeling’ as I have mentioned feels like a subtle ‘electromagnetic field’ around me.  It feels like if you having 2 pieces of magnet and the feeling you get at any attempt of bringing the opposite poles together.  It is a sense of resistance you get when the opposite poles of magnet brought closer to the other one. Similarly, I have a kind of similar feeling whenever another human being come closer to me. The ‘field’ gets stronger in relation to a shorter distance between the approaching person and me. I am not very sure exactly when and how it happened but it happened very gradually. Probably I have been experiencing for past 4-5 years now.

            This particular ‘electromagnetic field’ that I have been describing consist of 2 major patterns. The first pattern is a feeling that could ‘agree’ with my own field. The 2^nd pattern is another form of field that could not ‘agree’ or ‘tally’ with my own field. Again I could not come out with a proper term to use to describe the sense of ‘agree’ or ‘tally’ with my energy field.  In a simple word, I am using the word ‘agree’ if the other people’s energy suits me and do not disturb my own field of energy. Please note that I am using the word energy and electromagnetic field interchangeably and it means the same in this context. If the energy field of others ‘agrees’ with me, I won’t have any untoward feeling later on.  However in other circumstances in which if I am being exposed to the energy field which does not ‘agree’ with me, it will affect me tremendously. I will have a very subtle, fine feeling of pricking around my body particularly over the occipital (posterior) part of the brain/head and along the spine whenever I am being exposed to other people’s energy that could not ‘agree’ with mine. I will ‘suffer’ for few hours and sometimes days to get rid of this feeling and to restore back my own field.

            Being a doctor, I have to come into contact with patients on daily basis.  In those circumstances, I realized a sense of ‘feeling’ with different patients. The sense of ‘feeling’ is particularly strong whenever I touch the patients to examine them.  It does not happen with all the patients though. Some patients with chronic conditions have so much of impact on my ‘energy field’. This is particularly whenever I see patients with severe debilitating illness and psychiatric conditions.  Later, I started to sense the similar ‘feeling’ around my friends and human beings that has blood relation with me.

             Currently my travelling to work requires me to use public transport as the only mode of transport daily. I have to use trams on daily basis every morning to get to work and to come back home.  The seats in the tram are arranged in a way that 2 passengers seats side-by-side facing another 2 passengers opposite. The proximity of the seating places in the tram affects my energy field whenever another commuter seats beside me.  After a brief 3-5 minutes I will get the feeling of ‘uneasiness’ or ‘agreeability’ to the other person’s energy field. Similarly I have realized that my close friends whom I come into contact everyday exhibit similar patterns of energy field either ‘agreeing’ or ‘disagreeing’ with mine. Interestingly, I came across a wide variety of energy field with different people at different time. The intensity of the energy field differs according to individual and from my observation according to their state of mind. If they are restless or anxious, I could feel more intensely their energy field. However the pattern and intensity of energy field of a particular person that comes into contact with me are the same most of the time with very little variations.

            Actually, I have learned the cleansing method from my ‘Guru’/ ‘Master’ back in 2001 in which I have been practicing daily. My ‘Master’ mentioned that on daily basis we are constantly exposed to various form of energies in which he divided it into positive and negative energies.  Thus, it is important to cleanse our physical body on daily basis, preferably before sleep to get rid off the negative energy. It is a simple exercise involving auto- suggestion of our mind that we are getting rid of all the negative/evil/bad energy from our body and at the same time rubbing our whole body with hands (palms). While this exercise is being performed, we need to imagine the negative thoughts/energies are flowing from our body into a water-contained pot. Traditionally every Indian household has as a ‘milk pot’, which is being used to carry milk during religious procession. Alternatively any containers may be used a replacement for the milk pot. Once done, the water needs to be discarded carefully on moving water (river).

            

Mechanical mind @ 5 pm

It was 4.55 pm. I was waiting for 5pm to go back home.  The exact time of 5 pm has been fixed in my mind that I should complete my entire task and leave. Or sometimes it doesn’t matter, by 5pm I should go back whether the task has been completed or not. The task can wait for tomorrow. But the 5pm can’t wait. I must go back at 5 pm although by reaching home on time is not going to change any of my future plans.  Actually I have no future plans except to cook, watch TV and sleep. The same routine I have been performing for the past 3 months of my stay in Australia. I am sure it’s not going to change my life even a slightest inch by going back sharp at 5pm.  I am pretty sure that the world will be remained the same as what it is without any change what so ever even if I reached home 1 minute later. But that is not the question here. The question is I have to go back at 5pm.  I have been always pre-occupied with time. I always make sure that at 5pm, I should start packing my bag with the black umbrella and lunch box to head home. I will lock the drawer and with the jacket on, I will head towards the tram.  The tram stop is just 20 meters away from the hospital door. But I have to cross 2 traffic lights for the pedestrian cross before I reach the tram stop. There are times while waiting for the traffic light to turn green; the tram 59 will pass in front of my eyes. I will curse myself for missing the tram in which I have elaborated in very detail in yesterday’s writing.

            So I have decided one day, not to go back at 5pm. I am going to wait for the time to pass after 5pm. I have decided not to listen to my mechanical mind and start packing at 5pm. I have decided to ignore ‘it’. I just sat on my chair. I did not concentrate on my task either. I just sat in my office in front of the iMac aimlessly to just observe what will happen if I refused to listen to my mechanical mind. I waited and waited, for seconds, and minutes just for the clock to pass 5 pm and resisted every opportunity to get up to head home. My mind has failed to convince me at that particular time to go back by 5pm. But at 5.40 pm, I thought I should go back. While walking down the stairs from my office, which is situated at the 4^th floor, I have this particular tendency to pick up a free newspaper at ground floor. I would use the freely distributed newspaper while travelling in the tram to avoid a sense of awkwardness, which I always felt while sitting in the tram with complete strangers.  The content of the newspaper does not really matter for me but I will go through every page readings only the subtitles, conveniently avoiding the details. I am not sure why I have these predilections to read the subtitles alone unless the content is at utmost significance.

            While walking to the tram stop, it came to my mind that I should not again listen to my mechanical mind. Instead of taking the tram at the convenient stop 14, which is just 20 meters from the hospital doorstep, I have decided to walk further and to take tram at other stops. I also firmly decided not to take the freely distributed newspaper today and not going to entertain myself by reading the subtitles. There I was walking, observing how my mechanical mind will try to convince me to take the tram at the most convenient stop. My mind was trying to convince me that I already paid for the daily trip via the tram and I should take the tram instead of walking. It came up with other few suggestions why I shouldn’t walk and just take the tram.  The weather was too cold to enjoy the walk. I am wasting my time by walking, as it takes longer to reach home.  I can’t possibly reach home by walking alone as my home is 12 km away. What I am achieving through all these exercises and experiments. The tram will be more crowded if I board on it after 6 pm as other public commuters will be start using it. All these excuses were running in my mind while I was walking. I have decided to ignore and just walk without listening to my mechanical mind. I realized my mind is nothing better than a chatterbox. Its keep on chatting like a priest repeating a ‘mantra’. My mind keep on haunting me like a broken record. It refuses to give up. It’s worse than my shadow.  At least a shadow will stop momentarily without the sun. But the mind just refused to back off. It likes to question me at every instance whether I am paying attention or not. I have decided to completely ignore it and just walk while concentrating in my breathing. After a few hundred meters of walk, I realized I was just walking. The chatterbox was not there. The shadow was not there. There were no more excuses. There was no more reasoning. There were no more suggestions. For the first time I realized ‘I’ was walking alone without the mechanical mind.  And it’s a different feeling what so ever. It’s so difficult to describe the feeling. It was just a deep silence. Although outside ‘me’ there was hundred of cars and people passing by but inside it was utter emptiness. Inside there was a complete silence.

Mind and Tram Stop 44

I started to write after 4 previous postings. It’s harder to write this time. The first 4 times the flow was there. The spontaneity was there. But now, each time I write something, my mind plays a trick with me. My mind quickly organize what I intended to write. The mind wants perfection. The mind wants polish writing.  It refuses to accept any flaws or defect. It wants some writing that is presentable. It wants people to read and enjoy it. It wants to know what other people thinks about the piece of writing. It wants people to talk about it. The mind expects some result. It wants a goal. What is the point of writing for the sake of writing if there is no goal? Everything we do need to have a goal. We need objective. What is the aim? The aim is directed to both the writer/author and the reader. The author wants the reader to read and understand the message being conveyed. The author wants the readers to read and praise or critic the writings. There reader reads it to find out what is it all about. Either he accept it partially or fully as it suits his ego. Or reject it fully if it challenges his ego.

            This is the dilemma I was facing yesterday. I wrote half way and I stopped. I stopped writing the moment I realized there is no spontaneity in it. It is not natural. It comes from my organized thinking. It comes from my past. It is not alive. It is dull. Dull mind cannot write. Dull mind is equivalent to dying. It’s like committing suicide. It has to die. There is no energy in it. There is no meaning in it. The writing would be just the copied words and phrases. Nothing new in the writing if it is written based on an organized mind.  It would be repeating as what other has said. It would be just the same core with some adjustment with the periphery. With some twist and bends. No meaning at all. No meaning whatsoever.

            I realized how dull I am. How mechanical I am. How I am so confounded to the same routine. I am restless with even a slight deviation with the routine. My mind has found a security in routines.  The moment I deviate from it, it retaliates. It wants to go back to the routine. It is just not used to the new path. It feels safe with the same path. After all, everybody is doing the same routine. Why should I differ? Why should I run from the norm? The path has been tasted and tested by others. Surely it is the safest way. It can’t be other way around. My father has done the same thing and he is still following certain routine. My mother has done same thing and she has her own routine. Even my professor has his own routine.

            I woke up the other day and started to think about work. I started to think I am going to be late and I rushed with my packed lunch. I walked briskly to the tram station (stop 44). Just 50 meters before I reached the tram stop, my mind was running ahead of my pace, praying the tram would not pass now. If the tram passes now, I would have to wait another 15-20 minutes for the next tram to come. The feeling that I have to wait for another tram would create tremendous uneasiness in me. I would blame myself for walking so slowly. I would be thinking I should have woken up 1 minute earlier. I would be blaming myself for taking my own sweet time while brushing teeth or while answering the nature’s call.  Now I am thinking whether I might reach late to work. I am thinking what would be the professor’s opinion on me for joining late for the ward rounds.  I was sure he wasn’t being impressed if I am late again. So much of thoughts running in my mind in that 50 meters of distance before I reached the tram.  I realize the tram hasn’t passed the stop and in fact I reached 5 minutes earlier than tram. But why within that 50 meters my mind has to race with that many thoughts. 

I realized my mind assumes that the tram might reach to the stop 44 just before me and created all the subsequent connecting thoughts. My mind, I realized has the capability to reason out the causes and consequences if the tram would have pass before I reach the stop 44.  It has find out a way to react to the situation that might or might not happen. My mind creates a way for me to adapt to the situation in the event I miss the tram. It creates a buffer for me so that I will be capable to accept that there are a chance of me missing the tram and what are the consequences of it. The mind comes even with possible solutions in the event I miss the tram and late for work. My mind teaches me to find a reason in case I was asked by my professor for the late appearance for the rounds.  In the nick of the time, my mind has prepared with few possible answers. Why I am late to work? Reasoning 1: The tram was late. Instead of blaming myself to reach late at the stop 44, my mind finds it easier to blame the tram. Reasoning 2: The tram was malfunction during the course of its route to my workplace (which is stop 14).  Reasoning 3: I woke up late, as my alarm clock wasn’t functioning. Interestingly in the third reasoning my mind put the blames on the alarm clock (which happened to be my I-phone 3) that is already 2 years old. I started to analyze of course with the help of the same mind for all the reasoning. I found in all three reasoning there are some similarities. The first similarity is in all the reasoning; I was never being blamed by my mind. In the first 2 reasoning’s, my mind cleverly puts the blame on the innocent tram. On the third reasoning, my mind puts the blame on I-phone 3(alarm clock). I further questioned my mind why is that so. On further analysis, I realized that I had experience with the tram coming late and there was once the tram did stopped completely and I have to board another tram to work. So I figured out that those two particular events probably would have stored in my brain and my mind conveniently retrieve it to accept that as the cause for my late arrival. The third reasoning has a reason too. There was an instance 3 weeks after my arrival in Australia; my I-phone could not be switched on. As my I-phone takes the role of alarm clock, again my mind cunningly took that particular event as my third reasoning for being late to work.  Now I was asking my self a question. Why my mind never blames me? Why my mind refuses to accept the blame on itself? Each time the blame goes outwardly. It never comes inwardly.

I realized as well that I was never late at the first place. In fact I reached 5 minutes earlier than the tram. But within the distance of 50 meters so many questions, possible causes, consequences and reasoning was running in my mind. I realized how my mind plays the trick with me by giving a situation and at the same time prepares an answer for it. After all, the situation never arises. I wasted so much of energy thinking of it in that short 50 meters of distance. The moment I ‘stepped out’ and looked at my own mind, suddenly all the questions disappeared. All then possible causes stopped. All the possible consequences stopped. All the possible reasoning stopped. Everything stopped. The tram stopped as well and I took the tram to work and reached on time. 

Oh my mind?

Oh my mind?

Ho do you define normality. Is perceived set of cultures define by a group of people defines normal? Do the culturally bounded humans perceive a set of values as normal?  If these sets of values are normal, what is abnormal then? How you differentiate normal and abnormal. Why can’t we have values without a boundary? Values remained values as they are without definition. Values not given a meaning are meaningless?  Why can’t we look at things as they are without given our specific judgment? Why can’t we perceive things as it is rather than looking at it with our veils? Values are imposed on humans. These values are thought to humans till they are perceived as normal. These so called values are perceived since the centuries as norm of human beings.  As long as our mind perceives values as acceptance rather than imposition, the mind remained bounded. It remained bounded to the set of values forced into it. The mind remained confined to the set of values. It knows no freedom. The mind become restless the moment the values removed from it slightest sight. The moment the concept of mind conceptualized and perceived, it forgets the master. It by itself remained as master. It ‘s strengthened by its own belief. The mind become solidifies by re-enforcement of its own kind. The more it tries to untangle from its clutch, the more it get entangled. Gradually, it accepts the entanglement as part of itself.  Entanglement is mind.  The more entangled the mind is, the greater the achievement it perceives.  The achievement of a tangled mind is rewarded.  Rewards that further encourage entanglement. It’s exponentially rewarding. 

            Mind oh minds, why I am created. What am I? Again I am trying to define myself. Defining by giving meaning to myself. Defining by giving substance to myself. Defining to give value to myself.  Defining to create an identity to myself. So is it the identity that strengthens the mind. Mind oh minds, who am I. Am I John, Peter, William, Sarah, Rose, Linda? What if I am nobody? What if I remained as I am without the mind? But than, who is this I? Is the ‘I’ the mind or the mind is the ‘I’? Or both the “I” and mind are one.  Or is my body is ‘I’ and mind just attached to it.  Or the mind is the ‘I’ and the body is attached to it. How if the mind, the body and the ‘I’ are not connected at all at the first place? Are they three different entities? The three defines human? Is it possible for this ‘I’ to live without the mind? Is it possible the mind to live without the ‘I’? Is it possible the ‘I’ and the mind just be there without the boundary? Where the body comes into the picture than?

            Is it possible the body comes at birth without the mind and ‘I’? It remained as a body without any thoughts. It remained as a body of a baby without the name given by the owners, (parents). The mind comes later.  The so-called ‘I’ is not an actual ‘I’ but the ‘I’ identified by the parents to the body. The body still can’t perceive the ‘I’ given to it. It needs the mind to tell the body about the ‘I’. So, without the mind, the body cannot identify or defines itself with the ‘I’. So when the mind comes? When the naked body identified by the mind as ‘I’? Why at the first place the mind has to come to tell the body about the ‘I’? Is it possible to remove the mind from the body entirely so the ‘I’ never identified. Is it possible the body lives with the mind without the identification of the ‘I’.  But the moment the mind recognizes the body the sense of ‘I’ is perceived.

            Body is a matter of cells, a mass of protoplasm, which biologically functions with or without the mind. Is the mind really needed for the body to function? How about animals? Do animals have mind? Are the animals functioning with the mind or just with the body? If mind is something 100% needed for the body to function than all animals even the smallest bacteria or viruses has mind. So if the animals have mind, can they have emotions too?

Ok, Lets come back to humans.

            Lets come to an agreement. The body comes first, later the mind comes to be identified with body and ‘I’ defined by the mind. So the ‘I’ cannot stand alone without the mind or the body. The ‘I’ needs the mind and the body. The ‘I’ needs the mind to tell the body it is the ‘I’. So, who is this ‘I’?

            Do we really know when the mind starts it journey? Do we really know when the mind starts to incorporate the body into it as one and as the ‘I’, which is perceived by the mind?  Is it possible the mind knows nothing till it is thought?  So who is the first culprit to teach the mind to identify with the body and to perceive it as ‘I’? So who is the culprit to teach the mind to identify itself with the given name?

            Yes, the thought arises and the mind given birth. The set of collection of thoughts forms the mind. What are thoughts than? Is it the stimulus received by the body creates thoughts? Is it possible for the thoughts to arise without the stimulus? Is it possible to create a state of thoughtlessness with the entire stimulus removed from the body? So, if the five senses in which the body communicates with the surrounding removed, can the thought process stops? Would elimination of the visual, hearing, taste, smell and touch inputs, stops the brain from generating these thoughts?  Is it possible for a man to have no thoughts without these five senses? There are only two ways to live without all the senses, either by cutting off the connections between the senses and the brain or take away the organs that are responsible for generating senses.  Is it possible for a man to have all the five senses and the connections of the senses to his brain and still remain thoughtlessness? Is it possible to achieve a state in which the thoughtlessness remains despite of intact senses and the connections to the brain? The thoughtlessness stage or mind would see the body as it is without identifying it as ‘I”. The state itself would cease all the boundaries between the mind, the body and the ‘I’.